The Death of Me

My heart is growing old and I have premonitions

As long as you are by me, I know of only life taking its course

A process to remind me, thereby being fearless

When you are away, I feel as though I am without the sun

My body has no need for water

No need for anything

You were taken from me, kidnapped

Violated

It’s disgusting to have been left with this

A paper trail, a name, and no presence

Inept are the ones that have judged

Blood is as thick as vengeance

As it already settles you got what you deserved

You just don’t know it

Peace settles within me

I have no violent intentions nor wish anybody harm

I have lost that side, to know what it’s like to lose self-control

A thing to teach my own

The death of me

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Summer Sadness

Summer Sadness

 Dallas Days in and nights (life) out. The small building to the left is the 6th Floor Depositary Building

Dallas Days in and nights (life) out. The first small building in the center is the 6th Floor Depository Building.

In the beginning....

In the beginning….

 

A day without shoes for Tom's

A day without shoes for Tom’s

One of the sweetest I've ever met. RIP Johnny Pina

One of the sweetest guys I’ve ever known. RIP Johnny Pina

The building on the righ is Kidd Kraddick's studio

The building on the right is Kidd Kraddick’s studio (Radio personality). RIP Kidd Kraddick

New Kids on the Block whom I also saw back in '89

New Kids on the Block whom I also saw back in ’89

Goo Goo Dolls

Goo Goo Dolls

#dallasbig

#dallasbig

@t the Dallas Contemporary  Arts Exhibit for @Good

@t the Dallas Contemporary Arts Exhibit for @Good

Marching for the Dallas Pride Parade W/ @HRC

Marching for the Dallas Pride Parade W/ @HRC

Left: Debb Ship Right: Kari Logan

Left: Debb Ship Right: Kari Logan

#Flugtag 9/15/2013

#Flugtag 9/15/2013

If You Have Time To Read

In the times between the last post in March of this year,(i.e “A Place at The Table”) on through to October, my time was not wasted. I love to write. Now a days, in these “modern times” you have to do it all. Many part-time jobs, side jobs, or just flat-out helping people, has limited my blog. ( Yes, you still have to work)

The stride I had towards the end of the 2012 year was impeccable. I had an article I wrote on “Yes, Kids Need Their Father” down (just a few more edits). I try not get too personal. This would be in many ways a conflict for a reality project. I would like to disagree. It is my “memoirs”. Important memories.

The end of the 2012 year had a huge impact on me. The Sandy Hook Elementary shooting that took the lives of  20 precious children, is unspeakable. It effected me very much. It still does. It affected my writing, my creativity, that once again stirred up our stance on gun violence.

The Confusion

I have had many issues with the number 420. I ask why? It is a number for peace, at all costs, no money involved. The issue is the money, that creates huge problems. (Just look at what’s going on with the shutdown) Do not get the wrong idea, it is not the number of the beast (lol) and has several history points behind it. If you truly have peace in your heart then that’s what matters. If their is any issue with it , not on a peaceful level, I would remove it.  With that being said, allow me to present: Summer Sadness

A Place At The Table

In theaters, available on iTunes and On Demand a place at the table

A Place At The Table

Fifty million people in the U.S.—one in four children—don’t know where their next meal is coming from. Directors Kristi Jacobson and Lori Silverbush examine the issue of hunger in America through the lens of three people struggling with food insecurity: Barbie, a single Philadelphia mother who grew up in poverty and is trying to provide a better life for her two kids; Rosie, a Colorado fifth-grader who often has to depend on friends and neighbors to feed her and has trouble concentrating in school; and Tremonica, a Mississippi second-grader whose asthma and health issues are exacerbated by the largely empty calories her hardworking mother can afford.

Ultimately, A Place at the Table shows us how hunger poses serious economic, social and cultural implications for our nation, and that it could be solved once and for all, if the American public decides — as they have in the past — that making healthy food available and affordable is in the best interest of us all.

For the first 100,000 tickets, downloads or book purchased , Plum Organics will donate one essential nutrition pouch to a baby or toddler.

Personal Funding: Mr. Brent Frysinger for No Kid Hungry

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@Bfry420 Thank you for your tweet and for watching @PlaceAtTheTable . We hope the message spreads far and wide!

Yes, Kids Need Their Father Pt. I

Life walkThe importance of childhood development is having a stable mother and father. The alteration in a Divorce/Separation can lead to tragic events, it can turn epic, devastate a family and completely turns a parent/child progress upside down. The natural progression in your child’s life should be the main focus for the most important years to when they pursue their education. Many studies have been done on the absence of fathers, in which put a stigma on fatherhood. Either way, yes, kids need their mother, and yes, kids need their father.

Divorce, Separation, And Wasted Time

Lets face it, as we move along in today’s society, their is an all time high in the number of divorces in this country. About 41 percent of all marriages end in divorce. This rift ultimately has an impact on child development. This is a tear between child and parent relations. Children are forced to live in two different households not understanding why. The only way to have one set of rules and raise them unconditionally, is to stay on good terms between the separated partners. This can be a tad bit tricky. Certain situations can turn bitter between the mom and dad. Some turn to possession, lash out in violence, take away kids from either sex, say ugly things, and completely lose their state of mind. Others even suicide. This has massive ripples for years. It’s consequence after all this can be prevented. The consequence: is the impact on your kids and the useless time making things worse.

Some parents made a decision and felt it was in their better interest to separate from the other. Studies have shown that it is better to do it while the children are young. These studies believe that the younger the children are, it is better to avoid any resentments, and deter overwhelment do to change, than to pursue it at an older age. This allows children to adapt and move on. If you haven’t already done so, or left that child custody case pending, it’s wise to go ahead and get that part over with too.

The Good Ol’ Days

The natural progression of your child’s life from birth to 6 years old and when they approach kindergarten, are the most important. Throughout this time, you were primarily focused on your newborn son or daughter. These times are critical for you and your young’s life for one reason: your identity between each other. The fact you were there in your child’s presence alone, is significant.

While he/she is learning to walk, talk, learning their abc’s and 123’s, they are also learning discipline. They are learning this from both parents. It is found in a study from a Fragile Families and Child Well Being Study, children born to single mothers show higher level of aggressive behavior than that of those children born to married mothers. Multi-partners showed negative results as well.

Before you know it, your kids have reached the beginning of their long career in education. Having these unnatural occurences, having delivered a lot of time away from even the smallest impact on potty training could damper your child’s progression. Missing time on positive energy, or achievements, is just the many ways to hinder a child’s natural form of development and education.

As they reach adoloences, time at the dinner table, according to Ikramullah, E., Manlove, J., Cui, C., & Moore, K. A. (2009). Parents matter: The role of parents in teens’ decisions about sex. Washington, D.C.: Child Trends, could be a determining factor on their sexual active status. Not to mention this is an old parenting technique to ground your kids, teach them responsibility or even feed them a guilt trip to make sure they are at the dinner table every night. This small alteration, past, present or future, can damage the progress, even help in their fight against their turn for the worse into crime, not just on their sexual needs.

The training cycle is never-ending. It travels well beyond their teen years and even into their early 20’s. A lot of their teachers took on these rolls too, having taken the resposibility of your child’s future. Away from school it is another story, their are chores to be done, homework to be finished, dinner time, and a night-time to be fulfilled. The raising of your kids and their steps through life are very fragile. These small, constant progressions can easily be shaken if either parent is out of the picture.

The War On Fatherhood

I Inter-spousal domestic violence can be committed by both sexes. In some situations, it is a small aspect of family violence. False abuse allegations vilify mostly the men in our society, leaving the father as victim. These situations serve well in successful attempts to remove fathers from the lives of our children. These results below show a broad aspect of fatherless children.

  • 79.6% of custodial mothers receive a support award
  • 29.9% of custodial fathers receive a support award.
  • 46.9% of non-custodial mothers totally default on support.
  • 26.9% of non-custodial fathers totally default on support.
  • 20.0% of non-custodial mothers pay support at some level
  • 61.0% of non-custodial fathers pay support at some level
  • 66.2% of single custodial mothers work less than full-time.
  • 10.2% of single custodial fathers work less than full-time.
  • 7.0% of single custodial mothers work more than 44 hours weekly.
  • 24.5% of single custodial fathers work more that 44 hours weekly.
  • 46.2% of single custodial mothers receive public assistance.
  • 20.8% of single custodial fathers receive public assistance.

CHILDREN FROM SINGLE-MOTHER FAMILIES

Single-Mother Family Two Parent Family Relative Odds1
Problem % (n)2 % (n)2
Hyperactivity 15.6 (69,480) 9.6 (221,573) 1.74
Conduct disorder 17.2 (73,659) 8.1 (180,786) 2.36
Emotional disorder 15.0 (67,205) 7.5 (173,714) 2.18
One or more behaviour problems 31.7 (137,460) 18.7 (418,894) 2.02
Repeated a grade 3 11.2 (36,288) 4.7 (78,026) 2.56
Current school problems 3 5.8 (18,862) 2.7 (46,120) 2.22
Social impairment 6.1 (25,105) 2.5 (51,344) 2.53
One or more total problems 3 40.6 (128,895) 23.6 (381,715) 2.21

V/H/S Movie

When a group of petty criminals is hired by a mysterious party to retrieve a rare piece of found footage from a rundown house in the middle of nowhere, they soon realize that the job isn’t going to be as easy as they thought. In the living room, a lifeless body holds court before a hub of old television sets, surrounded by stacks upon stacks of VHS tapes. As they search for the right one, they are treated to a seemingly endless number of horrifying videos, each stranger than the last.

via V/H/S.

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End of Aids By 2015 (Lets Get The People Talking)

Ye’ sir. Trying to get the town talking to end aids by 2015… The importance among the humble, the appreciative for life, and all good deeds for this cause are truly important.
   It makes this country look good. It makes other countries see that we’re not as arrogant as we seem. For this, we do works of kindness and attain a grasp of freedom and enlightenment.
   Their is a togetherness for this issue, a ONEness to achieve this by this year.
   To believe in this, is something not imaginable 50 years ago.
   If it can be done, then let it be done. Let good deeds flourish, judgment be dismantled, squashed by our future generations, impelled in the minds and hearts of people and past generations.
   To see life suffer is only accepted as a gift with the Great Maker, and saddened by the humble and the appreciative for life.
   It is to some, very passionate works. They thrive for the cause not determined by illness, but the acts of man with cures. Modern medicine is a gift also.
   If we cannot arise for the End of Aids by 2015, we can be sure some will express it. We have the moral as human beings to fight for what’s right. We have the freedoms to let other people know your life is just as important as another life; capable of dreams, laughing, loving, sharing and caring . Let’s talk about you and me… Lets talk about it to the people in the crowd… Lets talk about how it was and how it should be. Lets get the people talking. Peace.